Last week there was a time when I felt my doubts and fears assail me once again, and run though my mind.
Is this really what I want to do?
How do I get people to read what I say and like it.
Where do I find the answers?
I want to be successful, but my patience is wearing thin?
The fear I will never be a success at anything and that I would have to spend more years in a dead end job fills me with dread.
How do I take my interests and turn them into a service or product, something that people will pay for. Whilst at the same time still enjoy them?
There must be something for me in this world. A place for me to fit.
The fears, doubt and dreams like those above can often trouble me. So much so that I still feel I have no focus in life. Even though I am doing better than I have in the past.
These feelings rise and threaten to drown out the enthusiasm I have about starting my own business and helping other people.
But today I noted again that there is a reason why these thought and feelings are here.
It was at the end of the day and I had not eaten for four hours.
Low blood sugar.
It has happened before but I keep forgetting. But it’s reminder that I am not in full control of my own mind.
When my blood sugar is too low, the nastier and more afraid side of me can come out.
Fears and worries about the future. Anger and frustration about the past. The despair of not being a successful as I would have like, and the loneliness of having to deal with it all.
It is that time just before a meal when your blood sugar is lowest. Such a state can affect your mind in profound ways.
The mistake here is in thinking that your thoughts are important, and the real you. If you believe them then you may really start to believe in those worries and fears about yourself and your future, just like I did.
But if you can recognise those thoughts as more to do with an outside cause, biology in this case. Then you can do what I did and ignore them. You see through them, and they no longer have control over you. You see them as phantoms of the mind try to scare you or keep you prisoner.
After this, the thoughts seem to fade, no longer having the power over me they once had.
But, and there is a but. This situation could happen again, and like then I need to have that awareness of where my thoughts come from. It’s a battle you cannot permanently win.
‘Eternal vigilance is the price of inner peace’
Further advice I would offer too (because I trained in nutrition), is eat protein in your meals as this slows down digestion.
Increasing the intake of whole unrefined grains, vegetables and fruit, which are major sources of fibre. This slows the digestion of carbohydrates. Both these tips will create a more gentle rise and fall in blood sugar levels.
The lesson here is to take care of yourself, eat a healthy diet, and eat regularly. Don’t get into the situation where your blood sugar does fall too low.
Further still once the negative thoughts descend upon you. Notice them and realise where they come from.
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