In some ways, I feel I have made a mistake in dealing with my Social Anxiety. I did my best to cope with it on my own. I dismissed both the disease and its effect by not believing I deserved happiness. My sensitivity and anxiety was just something I had to live with, a flaw […]
Is Social Anxiety more a habit?
Am I anxious just because I’m made this way or is it because I learned to be this way? (at least in part) Whilst some of us are predisposed towards anxiety (Sensitive types are like Orchids) I can’t help feel that in some way I learned to be anxious. I feel that for many chronic […]
Highly Sensitive People and Love
One of the biggest things that helped me with anxiety is learning I’m a Highly Sensitive Person. Before this, I was overwhelmed by noise, activity, my emotions, sensations such as hunger and muscle tension. I thought of myself as an anxious person, a flawed individual with nothing to offer. After learning I have a disposition […]
3 Ways to look at negative thoughts
In my own history of anxiety, I’ve unnoticed come at the problem from different directions. One was through logic and reason, another through insight and awareness. Now as an artist it’s imagery and metaphor. It made me reflect on the different ways we relate to and cope with our hopes, fears and worries. In the […]
The Heroes Journey and My Art
I reread the Star Wars X-Wing trilogy recently. Pleased that I found it a compelling as when I first read it. Reading for hours at a time, even late into the night. But the stories are what I note most of all. The feelings of joy, the camaraderie, the connection I felt with the characters. […]
The Insidious idea of Perfection
“I’m never going to be good enough”. Sometimes I just can’t shake that feeling. Ashamed of who I am, flawed, weak, shy, introvert. Not like the people who have it together, the happy people. You know the ones who are relaxed in their own skin. In short I wasn’t perfect and I knew it. My […]