It all gets too much sometimes; last week felt like this. Trying to make headway in the crucial areas of my life never seems to happen, like I’m spinning my wheels. Personal stuff bothers me; I won’t go into details, but my lifestyle is in transition, and I want it to go faster. I want […]
How fear shrinks our lives, shrivels our potential
When I’m anxious or afraid, it has a noticeable effect on how I show up in the world – I do less of it. Fear is a paralysing force; I tend to contract or retreat from the world and others when anxious. I wilt a little, and the worst thing is it becomes a habit. […]
Art of Anxiety and Fear
I suffer anxiety, but as a writer and artist, I don’t often find unpleasant emotions the sources of inspiration. I prefer to look at and dwell on beauty and ideas. When I feel fear, I feel physically sick; it’s no so much racing thoughts but the physical sensations that make it so uncomfortable. A couple […]
The rut of despair and getting out
Probably the worst thing I had to deal with is the depression that can come with my fear. There were times when I just couldn’t be bothered to do anything; I felt a listlessness with my circumstances that can lead to all-pervasive apathy. It’s a negative spiral of loneliness, worthlessness, powerlessness, and meaninglessness (what I […]
We are all Inbetweeners
‘The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance’ Alan Watts During moments of change in our lives where confusion and doubt reign. A place where we seem to be in no place, or in-between places. In limbo uncertainty and fear mix with […]
Is Social Anxiety more a habit?
Am I anxious just because I’m made this way or is it because I learned to be this way? (at least in part) Whilst some of us are predisposed towards anxiety (Sensitive types are like Orchids) I can’t help feel that in some way I learned to be anxious. I feel that for many chronic […]