My sensitivity vs my idealism

Yet more death in France due to terrorists.

The communist party in china is using the internet to kep its grip on the country. Preventing free speech, criticism and promoting it own ideas.

This is just a little of the bad news that I woke up to today. There’s more, there’s always more.

I shouldn’t read the news, my sensitive nature gets so easily upset. I want the world to be better and I get demoralised by the hate,
the autocratic government rules, or just incompetent governments.

Extremism seems to be on the rise. Fighting each other seems more important than cooperation. Governments seem to be run for the benefit of corporations rather than people.

It’s as if liberal ideas are crumbling and the world has moved more to the right. More often than not its the governments that are destroying them. Find someone to blame and get elected on that platform.

Worse still what victories are created have to be fought tooth and nail for.

In amongst all this the environment will continue to deteriorate.

A brighter future not something is see. Governments and peoples seem more intent on promoting their own interests at the expense of others. There’s no sense of a global community working towards a better world. It just selfish reasons that seem to dominate now. Every country for themselves.

It make me feel powerless, demoralised, and there very little I can do about it. I can’t make the world a better place, as much as I wish I could.
I’m too idealistic in my hopes, and far too sensitive.

I should stay away from the news, I find my life is a lot less upsetting, and more productive. My Highly Sensitive Nature is not well suited to this world, and the news is one thing I need to be careful about reading.

It’s just that I am idealistic, but I’m no leader. What can I do I want to make the world a better place for the generations that follow? I want to make a difference. To fight for what I believe in, but I don’t know how.

There are no leaders I’m willing to follow. I feel like Tyron Lannister or Varys from Game of Thrones (Seaoson 5, in Pentos). Concerned about the future of their country, and wanting to find a worthy leader.

‘Peace. Prosperity. A land where the powerful do not prey on the powerless.’ – Varys

It’s what I want for the world.

I’m over dramatising of course. I place far too much burden upon myself, and fall into a trap of self-aggrandising. It’s my romantic side coming out.

Instead I should ignore the news as best as I can, focus on my own life. The work I want to do, and the people around me. It’s the only way I think I will get anything good done in my life.

2 thoughts on “My sensitivity vs my idealism”

  1. I agree Richard. As soon as I saw the news about France I turned the T.V. off for the next 2 days. It may seem harsh but there is only so much pain one can cope with in a life time and I have reached my limit now – I thought I had reached it age 5 but I’ve definitely reached it now! My mantra is ‘no more pain’- so when I find people, situations or anything else making me ill, I now simply “fire” them from my life! If there’s something I can do to make the world a better place, I do it. If there’s nothing I can do, I ignore it. Ruthless? I don’t think so, how is me spiralling into a depression going to help anything? So concentrate on the moment – on the now- within your own small world – we do more good than we realize. Kira x

    • I agree Kira. I still look at the news, but I’m better prepared to tell myself that there’s nothing I can do. Instead i focus on my own purpose and mission in life and do something good there. Reducing harmful influences has helped me become more focused, and less upset or angry. My sensitivity requires that I take care of myself better. Richard.


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